So I'm swamped with homework that I've put off for about a week, am finishing up my plans for Scotland (and am getting really excited to go!), have done a pretty good job of running myself into the ground, and want more than anything to take some supplies and go out into the woods for a few days. This intense lonely feeling bursts into my life followed soon after by the desire to isolate myself. I can't do a good job of explaining my life, mainly because I have no idea right now of who I am. I try living each day as it comes but I've found that my focus has drifted very far from myself, causing me to forget who I am. Perhaps the fear of facing the real me has forced me to seek refuge in mindless distractions...but I'm lonelier than ever and before I got to this state I remember being really happy despite the fact that there was no one special man in my life. Well, I want that back and I want to open my mind and I want to know at heart that I am a good person. I've learned so much...now's the time to solidify it

Blah, enough of that...I've been braiding hemp and making earrings (sadly the beautiful ones I made my mom today were given to her before I could take a photo of them); taking photos and hanging with friends; getting stuff done and stepping back to enjoy the sunshine. Life is good